jane's blog.: Diggidy Dang!

I miss my bed. I miss Klang. It's barely been a week since I've been in Jb and I miss home. In Klang. Dilemma la, family? Comfortable house? Family? House?......I don't have a home la.

Since holidays are coming to an end, my worries start to pile up again. why la Y? Send me an angel, Lord.

I've never realised how far away I am from God these days until I've went with my mom to a service in her church. It was a special service with a pastor from Hong Kong. He was talking about when we make loving God a responsibility rather than really loving Him passionately. I found myself relating to his sermon VERY much. Actually he was preaching my life story. I've been in church since 7 or 8. Have gone through a typical christian childhood I guess. I remember the passion I had for Christ when I was 12 or so. I remembered I listened or rather I tried to listen to every word the pastor said and really prayed like i mean it. I remember the earnesty I had, I was eager to see His face.

Then something happened. I don't know what exactly. I started to play the piano in chinese service. Or was it tue's meeting? I can't really remember. All I know is that I've been doing it since I was 13 or so? Till now. I'm 22 so that means....wow...9 years. I used to play with such passion. With all my heart. Now I try to remember how it was and play best I could. Though my skills weren't that good yet then, I felt like I played better. Now playing the piano for God feels more like a routined responsibility.

And after the sermon, the pastor asked us to pray in tongues. Straight away I felt so lazy and tired to do it. And when I tried it, it suddenly felt so weird and foreign. Proves how long since I've done that. My attitude is terrible. I've become proud. I forgot why God gave me these gifts I have. I forgot who I am.

Switch mode!

I just saw Sarah's new do! It's super duper awesome possum!! hahaha....homeless emo punk rocker hawt!

Which also brings us to the fact that, I did my hair today. hahaha.........today I spent the morning going through different hairstyles, colours, face shapes(I tried to distinguish mine by measuring using a ruler). In the end I kinda decided on a "something" that I wanted to do and left the house.

I drove. The jip. A stick. Way Cool.

Wokay so this is the before pics.